The Mandrake [Published Private Life]

Last night, there was an incoming SMS in my mobile phone informing that there was an earthquake in Nias islands, just western off Sumatra island, Indonesia. This happened just 3 months after its neighboring province, Banda Aceh had hit by tsunami on December 26 last year.

I am now beginning to think that this is it. The end of the world is coming. Call me religious frantic person or whatsoever. But, I feel that devil’s fingers have been all over the world. People have forgotten their Creator. God has also abandoned His children, cause He has no children to come back for. The rich declare themselves poor but drive a more-than-10,000-dollar Jaguar. The poor just got worst by not conducting good manner.

I see war at the edge in many nations: Indonesia-Malaysia, China-Taiwan, Israel-Palestine, and anywhere in the world. I see disasters, both natural and man-made. I see immoralities everywhere.

Could it be that God has left us alone here in the world? Could it be that He has fed up showing His existance in the world, and His children just keep ignoring Him? Could it be it’s His way of saying, “You take care of yourself now”? Or, it’s just the way of Him showing His compassionate? I mean, we’re merely human, cannot, in any way, understand His way of thinking.

I submit myself to God. I believe He has plan on us. Whatever it is. I believe it’s for the better of us. I pray to God so that He won’t take the faith in me. If I ever lose my faith.. oh well.. I won’t even think about it.

May God saves us all.

Tomorrow is a holiday. Like the previous two weeks, it falls on Friday. That could only mean one thing: looooong weekend! I’m gonna get myself some happy. I’m going to go to amusement center, do the dance cha cha cha.. no no just kidding. Actually, despite being 30s, there’s a child inside of me who’s hunger of video games and other fun activities that can only be enjoyed by kids.

What about you? How do you spend a long weekend?

Falling apart. That’s how I feel about my life right now. There is nothing dramatic, really. I have a great job and a wonderful family. It’s just that I expect something more.

I want to feel the thump, the beat, the sensation of something. I suspect that it’s because I’ve been in the same position at work for about 3.5 years.

I want to make something, create something that can change the way of life of people everywhere. But, I’m not sure what it is. I want to do something for the world.

I miss those days when I could just sit back and enjoy music, and don’t have to worry about anything. You know, today I played ‘Sepultura’ looping infinitely from the moment I started working at nine to five. Phew, now that I am at home I wonder how I can manage with that.

Oh well, I don’t even know where this writing leads to. Perhaps, this is just so that you know me better, you know, because I’m writing this entry on Friendster, and that you are my friends Why write in English? Welp, because not all of you speak my mother tongue language. That simple.

And, I expect you do the same. I mean, create a blog on your account. Let me know how you feel on the current day. Let me know the day when you fall on the ground and hurt your knee. Let me know the day when the day is your birthday and everyone arround you congratulate you. Let me know the day when the day is the first time you receive French kiss. Let me know that today you give speech at the White House. Whatever. Just share the story. Surprise me. Surprise your friend(ster). It’s fun.