The Mandrake [Published Private Life]

“Don’t wanna be an American idiot.
Don’t want a nation under the new media.
And can you hear the sound of hysteria?
The subliminal mind f**k America.“

The above paragraph is quoted from the first verse of American Idiot by Greenday. I’m not going to discuss America nor Idiot here. I couldn’t explain how clearly this band in discribing the media. I believe the media is shaping what we are nowadays (read: being idiot).

The media dictates what you like to see, what you want to hear, it even tells you your taste.

On TV, it dictates you that girls with fair complexion, long smooth black hair and slim are the most beautiful in the world. So, if you are not like what being described here and do not use their products, you are likely to be an ugly girl. Nobody wants you. So, buy this skin whitener, you’ll be a fair lady. Buy this shampoo, you will have beautiful hair. Buy this pill, you will be slim and sexy.

Why be afraid of natural process? It seems that those glittering shiny girls have blocked our mind to think clearly. Black, or at least brown skin girls can look lovely. Curly, or even kinky girls can also look pretty. Why bother thinking about your own shape? Why not turn off the TV or change the channel? I guess people like being told by the media.

The media tells you what you like to hear. There is this local band whose songs suck! Pretty suck, but being fed everyday on TV. I bet not many of them know that their first debut really sucked. All songs were monotone. I bet they only used 3 chords. But, this is all they see on TV. The media doesn’t give any choice of music. Even now they don’t improve. But their song still play everywhere. Miraculously, everybody likes it. You can count me out on that one.

I prefer to listen to indie songs. All songs from branded band can f**k off. Well, not all of them. I do like some of them. Too bad, they’re all infected with dirty business mind. If they were all truly artists, they wouldn’t go on campaigning piracy.

Anyway, I don’t wanna be an American .. er.. I mean some nation idiot. I don’t like the media telling me what I like. I choose not to like the f**king boring band that everybody likes. If you say you like the band and like the songs then all I can say is that you are what the media tells you to be. Enjoy.

I feel like God has left us all alone. He stopped keeping score with His children. If God is still watching, I’d feel that He wouldn’t let all this chaotic mess going on.

Yesterday, I received an email containing picture of Elton John, the famous male singer, wearing wedding dress (it’s not typo, it’s dress… as in women’s dress). It’s said that he married some guy. Last Sunday’s our local daily newspaper also discussed about the growing community of gay and lesbian. And today, I found out that there’s an act on liberating same-sex marriage in our country.

As if we’re not burdened heavily enough with all this s**t on price hike, and the oncoming Playboy first edition in our country, these idiots need to add some challenge to our peaceful mind by bogging with this issue.

I once watched this movie about this. Actually, the movie was not about it, but, there was a scene that’s captured in my mind. There was this girl and this boy. She actually taught the boy that, in terms of sex, girls and boys are not different. She asked the boy to close his eyes, and imagine he’s with a man. While closing his eyes, he touched the girl’s body. So, touching a man with a girl’s sensation, that’s what she taught.

Fool, that means that being gay or lesbian would be mind twisting. All you have to do is twist your mind. There’s no such thing as fate. I don’t believe God means to create people to be in love with the same sex. So help me God if I’m wrong, but I bet those who are playing same-sex love and name his/ her way of life as what God wants would tremble in fear when they meet God Himself, when God asks what they’ve done in this world.

Not enough with same-sex marriage, these folks need to adopt babies. And, what would these brilliant people teach to the innocent kids? That same-sex love is pure? What if their kids are normal and would puke on them? What if their kids got so frustated having gay parents and decides to kill themselves? Would they bear these kids sin? Would they be responsible for all of that consequences?

I believe God has made everything perfectly in balance. There’s nights and there’s days. There’s fire and there’s water. I believe God didn’t make Eve as a woman without letting us think that Adam is a lonely man. All a lonely man needs is a woman. He didn’t make another Adam, but he created Eve. Adam and Eve. If same-sex love people forget about this, I bet they deny the power of God. Even animals don’t recognize same-sex marriage. It just doesn’t make sense.

Yup. I guess somewhere along the way, He must’ve let us all out to play. Turned His back. Cause He has no children to come back for (actually, these sentences were quoted from George Michael’s Praying for Time).

Remember my posting on Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas? Finally, two nights ago, I finished it! I managed to kill traitor Big Smoke and curropted Officer Tenpenny. I also found out that the Jetpack I snatched from the “Black Project” mission to be useful in gang wars. So, I managed to take over the red area and the Ballas area.

So, there I (CJ, to be precise) was in Big Smoke Crack Palace, destroying the building, killing all the villains. Then chasing down Officer Tenpenny, shooting at all the police cars and the Ballas gang cars, with all Molotov cocktail thrown at our car. Then, that’s it! Finished! Finished!

Okay, I used cheat mode. But only for this last mission. Because, at first attempt, I did it very beautifully. I managed until chasing down Tenpenny. But, alas, our car got blown up due to massive attack from police cars and the Ballas gang. So, I decided to use cheat mode because I knew that was the last mission I had to go through.

You know, I learned something in this game. When you want to achieve something, you have to try and try again. That’s what I did in this game. When I was stuck in the flying lesson, I got so desperated. But, I stubbornly tried to finish the lessons again and again. Then, I did it! And also, when I was in the “Air Raid” mission. When I have to shoot the Charley’s, Zero’s rival, flying toys. I had to do it again and again. But, I did it! All without cheat mode! With almost real reality, I felt like I was there. The scene was madolled to US cities: Los Angeles, Las Vegas, the Golden Bridge, etc.

So what, did I get medal for this? Hell, no. If you are not a gamer, you wouldn’t understand this satisfactory feeling 8D Phoo-weey. Now, I can move on to another game. Don’t get me wrong, I still play this GTA: SA, but this time, it’s only for fun: flying chopper, shooting and stabbing people and gang, speeding, etc. Ha ha ha!

Last Sunday, I watched this local show on TV. The show was about a bunch of people acting in comedy style. It was supposed to be entertaining. This show has been going on for several months, if I’m not mistaken. At first, I was amused by the show. It can make me laugh. Not many local shows can make me laugh like this one. One of the cast was the one who appeared on a movie as a gay. He did kiss his fellow cast on the movie. Though, I’m not really sure, because I didn’t see the movie. But, everybody’s talking about it.

Anyway, the point here is that I found out that I’ve had enough with the show. It has come to a point where it annoyed me. Sure, it’s fun. It makes me laugh and everything. But, there’s a tendency of making the male casts appear in women’s dress and act like female (or she-male?). The group actually has two beatiful sexy chicks who can appear as real female. But, no. They decide to go on with the guys appearing as female. Then, I stopped and thought, how come they didn’t bring out the chicks? Were the chicks not funny enough? Or, being chicks are supposed to be amusing? I truly disapprove this thing. I mean, if a girl wearing guy clothes and act like a man, people would just go on and say that she’s a tomboy. But, when a guy wear women’s dress and act like a woman, people are expected to find it funny.

There must be an easy way of making people laugh without having to be a shemale. The case would be different if the guys appear in women’s dress and change their voice like female without the audience knowing it. I think I’ve had enough with the show if they keep making appearance like shemale. There are many other TV shows (I’m not talking about local TV show) that don’t require their casts to appear as shemale, just to make their audience laugh. Oh well, just when I thought I’ve found a good entertaining local TV show…

Have you ever in a situation where you were in a car, and someone else was driving it? You noticed that he could not drive the car properly. Always drove zigzaggedly on a straight street, hit the red light, drove fast on bumpy roads, put the gear in the wrong pace, etc. You thought you could drive better than him.

Now, imagine that car is your country and the driver is the president. Wouldn’t you have the temptation to be a president when all you see is all wrong and no right? If being a president means one can decide fuel price hike, a fool like me can be a president as well. If being a president means one can decide that there’s a compensation for the fuel price hike for poor people who cannot make money more than USD10 per month, a fool like me can be a president as well. If being a president means one can be angry with my people who are being illegal aliens in another country trying to make better money than within my country without knowing their reason and without looking at the fact that job vacancies in his own country is scarce, a fool like me can be a president as well. If being a president means one can be annoyed by what my people say when I visit their place of studies abroad and comparing educational systems which is cheaper and better and more quality, a fool like me can be a president as well. Our current president makes running government look so easy that I am tempted to become one.

Having said that, for those who read this article, would you please by my supporter when I run into being the candidate? That is, of course, if I survive this government. You know, with all this s**t fuel price, price of everything. My plan? It’s simple of course. I just sit in my presidential office and do nothing. Sign things. When the media expose that I just signed salary increment for government official (including me), I’d just act surprised and that I wouldn’t approve such increment and still, do nothing about it.

Oh, such an easy life it is. Hey, if I am the president, I will make sure you will receive compensation for everything. Now, would you support me? Please please oh, please. Can I be a president? Pretty please with sugar ;)?

When I bought my PS2 machine some months ago, this game came with the package. Welp, actually, I chose it. The Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas is such a time consuming game, and I meant in positive way. I mean, until now, I still play the game. Do all the missions, no matter how long or how many times I have to try. I keep on going.

No other games have made me deeply involved like this. It’s an adventurous game. Right from the start I have felt the tense of riding a bike while a bunch of gangsters chasing you on their car. There’s a similar game like this, Driv3r. But, it couldn’t give me much pleasure like GTA: SA.

I like playing it for hours. The most difficult one was the Learning to Fly mission. Damn, it took me days to complete all the lessons. I finally got the ropes of it. The key was to stay calm and make your plane fly steadily. Missions after that will be just smooth. I mean, I spent hours on learning to fly. Now, in my hangar I have military helicopters, a plane, and a “vertical bird” plane.

Last night, I played the Home Coming mission. I didn’t finish it, though. I got too sleepy when it was 2. But, I was satisfied, that means I’m about to be at the end of the game. I’m just kind of wondering how this game ends.

When I Googled the Internet about this game, I found the game is more than just a game. Some characters were voiced by famous people! Check this out! The “Madd Dogg” character was voiced by Ice T. Officer Tenpenny was voiced by Samuel L. Jackson. Mike Toreno was voiced by James Woods. Check out this link: http://www.gta-sanandreas.com/characters/index.php and see if you can make other characters as well.

Okay, I hope I can finish this game in a few weeks because it’s been such a long time and I need to know how it’s going to end. Wish me luck.